I was planning another suicide attempt. Life in this world frustrated me. I failed at suicide so many times, I was a complete failure. It had been ten years since my wife left and turned my kids against me. I had tried to kill myself before I met her, while I was with her and after she left so her leaving was more a symptom than a cause. I have always been dissatisfied with life. I applied myself diligently to the christian religion and couldn’t understand why God would allow anybody to go through what I had to. I still can’t understand how being beat as a child is my own fault. So I was a project. I tried therapy, medications and had been hospitalized more times than I can count. Nothing ever worked and suicide was the only relief available to me. Now enter Mark Hamilton. About 9 months ago I got my first heirloom manual. Since then I have been joining the realm of the living. The negative peolple in my life are leaving. I am embracing the void expectantly because I know now that something better is coming. This itself is huge for me but there has been an even greater miracle. I am texting one of my estranged daughters. Furthermore, the constant thoughts of suicide are gone. I feel an excitement for life. I am still very new but fully expect my life to get better and better as long as I continue to apply the sound wisdom. I am excitedly looking foward to the rest of my life. Thank you Mark Hamilton!
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